Daily Moon Phases

Monday, November 6, 2017


       Oh my goodness! Belz! I was listening to this video interview, and then I went to go look at this man's website. I downloaded the book but haven't even begun reading it yet, because I went to the questions and comments section of the site and began reading. Belz is like the Hierophant in its meaning, connecting beings together through his wisdom. In more ways than one. He's so awesome. So I was down the page a short while, and I had to pause to clean up a little around here and as I was cleaning, I could hear him saying something to me, and I commented back to him that I need my space because I just do. And then after I finished cleaning, I went to continue reading, and oh my goodness, hahaha, it said exactly, in the comment, about the short conversation we had within that fragment of a moment that we communicated while I was cleaning. Extraordinary. He's still helping me. He is so AWEsome! Hahaha. I love him. Thank you Belz.
STRAWMAN - The Real Story Your Artificial erson - Your Entire Life is a Lie, on Leak Project

                      "Anonymity is not a word describing that which is necessarily an unknown in Nature. In the fictional, legal law realm it merely describes the absence of political or public character (that of a fictional name as evidence of some class and legal status) attributed to a work. And so I, as the exclusive author of this work, choose not to identify myself under any fictional (legally) registered name and or / persona of another for the purposes of this work, including any "natural" or "artificial" legal person, and instead choose to remain anonymous to all such fictional realms." 

(June 23, Saturday 2018. 3:19AM)
  Hey! My beautiful Belz!~

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Saturday, November 4, 2017

Doctor Strange.

Fucking freaky movie. I just started watching it, and I see some beings jumping through a porthole, from one weird world into another. Wiki Doctor Strange.

I guess you have to be pretty damn intelligent to be a brain surgeon.

There's also a strange full moon tonight. And it sure is strange around here. It has rained all day, and now, this evening, 10:22pm, it has stopped, and when I looked outside, it's all cloudy but there's a pink glow everywhere I look around at the horizon, sort of like the sunset in summer, everything is pink, pink clouds everywhere. If I look straight up, it looks grey but I could see a thin film of pink there too.

That was a great movie. I love the colours where that momo whatever his name was where the loop de loop thing was happening. It's similar to the colours I saw when I travelled into a different kingdom. It was all black, but with these beautiful neon colours here and there, and I loved it! Thanks for making this movie. I love you! Make more cool movies like these.

Wednesday, October 25, 2017

Fine Guarantee.

Fuckers, I'm impressed with you. Gueranteed. Guerrilla fighter.

Is it Royalty? Children of the Sun?  Is that, royalty? Like that? Children of the sun. Hm. Children of the Sun. Hm hmhm. Children of the Sun. What is the Sun. Who is the Sun. What are you? Who are You? Like Lucifer. You lost your ability to use your own head when you were too young to know you had a head to use. But, when those who came along, too strong to resist... you had to surrender, and give it up, to them. At the same time, what and who, were you really, giving it, up, to? You. Who are  you? A lovely thought. Ought to go meditate on it, once in a while. I do fit in somewhere. Hmhm. Hahahaa. Ok. Let's listen to some, more music.

I'll just crush it.
Have you ever felt insecure before? Jya ever feel secure? What's the difference? Because I'm trying to find out how to behave when around certain types of people. You know? Just send all your experienceds to "me" and Thank you. I'll b e  l ea r ning from you. bahy.

Wednesday, October 4, 2017

Falkers. I'm Impressed. You...

   Fixed it. You actually fixed that problem in the computer system. Now we have a well oiled beautifully operating Beast. Thank Goodness.  I can rest at Peace now. Hahaha. Soon as you all'r headed home, I'll leave. Until you are all gone, I will have to stay here. How long do you want to be in my... haha... company?

That's good. Let's go.

Yes. Thank you. Beautifully Well done. Breathless. I had no idea that problem could even BE fixed. I guess I know why now. Hahahaa.... bzt, got a go.

Snakedance 5

Snakedance 7

Tuesday, October 3, 2017


   The sound of a black cricket.

What a beautiful sound.

If it wasn't for insects, this place would be...

hahaha, Nothing.

But if we did, all go back to Zero Point, would we be fulfilled? Ready?

Let's just listen to the sound of insects as they sing their song. And enjoy it.

Monday, September 18, 2017


...you get too close, sparks are gonna fly, and that'll create a fire. You don't wanna burn, do you?


Wednesday, August 30, 2017

Back Jack

Do it again...
                     and again...
                                        and again...

Fuck the Serpent.
"Wise as an Owl"

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

Foreign Planets Criminal Invaders Holding OUR Planet in Subjugation To Them.

They make it SO difficult for people to even HAVE any experience!

They murder those who share what they have found to help others' lives be easier and more pleasant, and they hide from us what is good for us, food for thought. They poison the food we eat so they could make us sick, then give us only one option, THEIR organized hospitals so that all the money just basically goes into their coffers, just like in the days of old where they forced people (with the threat of murder) to drop their gold and food into the temple for the priestHOOD of the Illes to load up the boats that sent off all mankinds' goods to the islands where those corrupt, posing as gods, horrible psychopathic beings lounged around in idleness while their personal human slaves (forced to be sex slaves and other slave jobs on the island for 'them') loaded up their spaceships with the gold from Our planet, to send to their planet, to repair the damage THEY themselves have caused to occur to their OWN home-planet. 

And now they have flown here to desecrate ours? That is not fair.
Us people who originate on this planet must get together and do something to prevent them from ever coming back here to steal from our planet and destroy the living structures on it, the way they did to their own planet.

(PDF Becoming)
All those who have been, fortunately, helped by other existing beings to get far enough out from under the mind manipulation they've put us in, and have woken up enough to see what is going on, we must somehow reach the others who are beginning to see as well, and together we can work our inner power over them, to remove them from our planet, permanently!

Murdered Scientists 2004-2015


Life IS like a box of chocolates Forrest. They are deeelicious!

Friday, July 21, 2017

The Swooning Mind.

     Some things are so terrible... it gets my mind all swimming. I sometimes wonder about how the like attracts the like when I turn to alcohol to perform an operation called homeopathy. The only problem with that, is it leaves headaches behind, and I already have enough of those, so... what to do?
Strengthen the resolve to be firm whenever the flood hits the mind so that I can't even focus! oh my! very clearly on anything. There's a whole different world when that happens. You revert to the heart and strengthen that relationship. 'Heart, help me, where are you? I need to hide for a while.' You become closer to the whole Being within you. But it still hasn't helped in the matter of a floating swooning mind. Oh how to deal with that next? Where to delve and find a solution!? So that I may advance.

The chord connections! Ah! Maybe if you unplug this, and plug it into there... what an experiment. Hopefully I'm on the right track. Must be careful. Looking for a solution, not a breakdown.

That's right. Life here brings its puzzles and uncertainties, but we'll get through by being certain of whatever step we take is directed by the heart, that her footprints are what we are looking at when we look down in the sand before us, or up in the sweltering rays of the sun above, leading us on to wherever we are suppose to be and for whatever purpose. In the meantime, ohmygoodness, hide.

Here! A poem. To mess up the mind, to unravel then straighten it out again.

By Theodore Tilton

ONCE in Persia reigned a King,
Who upon his signet ring
Graved a maxim true and wise,
Which, if held before his eyes,
Gave him counsel, at a glance,
Fit for every change or chance:
Solemn words, and these are they:
"Even this shall pass away!"

Trains of camels through the sand 
Brought him gems from Samarcand;
Fleets of galleys through the seas
Brought him pearls to rival these.
But he counted little gain
Treasures of the mine or main.
"What is wealth?" the King would say;
"'Even this shall pass away.'"

In the revels of his court,
At the zenith of the sport,
When the palms of all his guests
Burned with clapping at his jests,
He, amid his figs and wine,
Cried, "O loving friends of mine!
Pleasure comes, but not to stay:
'Even this shall pass away.'"

Lady fairest ever seen
Was the bride he crowned his queen.
Pillowed on the marriage-bed,
Whispering to his soul, he said,
"Though a bridegroom never pressed
Dearer bosom to his breast,
Mortal flesh must come to clay:
'Even this shall pass away.'"

Fighting on a furious field,
Once a javelin pierced his shield.
Soldiers with a loud lament
Bore him bleeding to his tent.
Groaning from his tortured side,
"Pain is hard to bear," he cried,
"But with patience day by day,
'Even this shall pass away.'" 

Towering in the public square
Twenty cubits in the air,
Rose his statue carved in stone.
Then the King, disguised, unknown,
Gazing at his sculptured name,
Asked himself, "And what is fame?
Fame is but a slow decay:
'Even this shall pass away.'"

Struck with palsy, sere and old,
Waiting at the Gates of Gold,
Spake he with his dying breath,
"Life is done, but what is Death?"
Then, in answer to the King,
Fell a sunbeam on his ring,
Showing by a heavenly ray--
"Even this shall pass away."

by Theodore Tilton

Many shades of grey matter.

Monday, July 10, 2017

Death or Ascension.

From :  "Ramtha; The White Book"

     Chapter Seven; Death or Ascension.

   "Death is not a necessary rule in this kingdom. It is far easier to take the body with you. Then you never have to be born again through the birth canal and come into a consciousness which, regretfully, does not accept your memory."

So this body is a 'vehicle of expression' as Ramtha calls it. Page 103: "He comes here because he wants to live here and to be enterprising in emotional learning on this level, to obtain emotional understandings that he wants to fulfill within his being. That is the true treasure of your life experiences, whether here or on other planes or dimensions, for that is the only thing that remains with you throughout eternity."

Pg 104:
   Student: Do we always have to be born through the birth canal in order to come back here?
Ramtha: To answer your question, master, first I wish you to understand that this is the plane of three-dimensional perception. It is the plane where thought is visible in the three-dimensional form called matter. This plane is the density of matter because thought has been expanded into a vibratory frequency called light, which then has been slowed in its vibratory frequency to become electrum, and from electrum to become gross matter, and from gross matter to become the solidity of this plane. The matter of this plane is thus light that has been slowed in its vibratory frequency and taken to its densest form.
   In order for everything here to have the same density, everything has to vibrate at the same frequency. Thus your body is vibrating at the same frequency as the chair in which you are seated. This level exists to you because the senses of your embodiment have been designed to perceive the slowest frequencies of light called matter.
   Because you are in your essence a light energy that is of a greater vibratory frequency than the density of matter, if you did not possess an embodiment of matter you would pass through the matter of this plane. Thus the body is what allows you, through its density and sense organs, to perceive and experience and interact with the matter of this plane.
   So if you wish to be a part of this frequency, you must inhabit and be a part of a manifested body. One way to have an embodiment is to be born through the birth canal. The only other way to have a body in order to experience this plane is to be born through the birth canal, wholly maintain the integrity of self, and activate the entirety of the organ called the brain. Once you have opened your brain capacity to full use, you can at will command the body to raise its vibratory frequency to the point where it goes out of the frequency level of matter and into the vibratory frequency of light. That is called ascension.
   Ascension is simply the means of taking the entirety of your being into another dimension of your accepted consciousness. Death is certainly one way to get there, but that means allowing the structure of the embodiment to fall into age and decay and to be no longer. Then you are without the embodiment. Ascension is taking your embodiment with you.
   Those who have ascended this plane have mastered the ultimate, which is death. They have learned how to raise, through the power of their thought, the vibratory frequency of the body's molecular structures to the point where the body is taken with them into a light existence, thus forever bypassing death.
   When you take your body with you, the body can be raised and lowered upon any frequency level you choose. So if you choose to come back into this frequency, you never have to look for another body with another ego in order to exist in another life, with another family, in another country. You no longer have to be born again into this plane of limited thinking only to undergo the programming of social consciousness and have to fight for the expression of self in order to regain your knowingness. You do not have to learn all over again that the body can be restored to the purest light-form from which it came. You do not have to learn again that this is just an illusion and a game.
   Once you master ascension, you maintain your body forever and can come and go at will with your own embodiment. Then any moment you wish to be a part of this plane again, all you have to do is lower the bodily vibrations to where it vibrates at the same frequency as this plane, and here you are.
   All here are capable of ascending, for that which lurks behind the illusion of flesh is the creator of all universes. And at your own choosing, through UNLIMITED THINKING, can make this manifestation occur. When you learn to master judgment against your thoughts and allow yourself to RECEIVE ALL THOUGHT, you have the power and the ability to become any ideal that you envision. (hence the saying, be as children, since children entertain all thought). Then you can do or become anything through thought. You can take your thought, concentrate it on the body, and command the body to vibrate faster. The body will then elevate toward the ideal that the thought holds steadfast for it. The whole of the body will begin to vibrate at a greater rate of speed. As it does so, the temperature of the body will rise and the body will begin to take on a glow. As it continues to vibrate faster, the matter of the body will go into pure light and then into pure thought. Then that which was seen is seen no longer.

   Student: It would seem that ascension is a difficult thing to achieve because you don't hear much about people ascending.
   Ramtha: On the contrary, master, ascension is very easy to achieve. In truth, it is simpler than dying. What is difficult to achieve is mastering judgment against your thoughts. What is indeed difficult to achieve is mastering the illusion of time in order to allot yourself the patience to do it. But once you do, ascension is simply a thought away. Then you have retained your body for all times and can thus be a traveler upon any plane at any moment you choose.
   Student: And you never experience death?
   Ramtha: Never. How can you when you are beyond it? You know, death is a great illusion. Death is an accepted reality on this plane, which all think must be; thus it has become a reality. Entity, the only reality is life; everything else is an illusion. Illusions are thoughts, that are games, that become realities.
   Death is not a necessary rule in this kingdom. It is far easier to take the body with you. Then you never have to be born again through the birth canal and come into a consciousness which regretfully does not accept your memory.
   No one has to die. You will die only if you believe you will. But the body need not ever die. The Gods who designed it did not design it to last for only a fleeting moment in time. They designed the body to live off its glands, not its organs. And through a flow of hormones from the glands, the body was designed to live hundreds of thousands of years and never grow old. That was how it was programmed in its cellular structures. Only a short time ago in your history, entities lived to be thousands of years old.
   Death is only the ending of the body, not of the personality self. But it is through the attitudes of the personality self that the life force of the body is degraded and the body is evoked into what is termed death. Your body responds only to waht it is told to do. Your soul, which sits beside your heart, governs the entire body through its emotional structure. The soul is what causes hormones to be dispensed throughout the body in order to maintain life in the embodiment. The soul does not do this on its own but rather under the direction of your attitudes and thought processes. Because of your attitudes here, the hormones cease to be created in the body after puberty. When they are no longer created, a death hormone is activated in the body and the whole body begins to break down, to grow old, and to die. The death hormone is activated in the body because you live in guilt and self-judgment and the fear of death. And to you, beauty is based wholly on the appearance of youth, not on the character of one's being. You anticipate death by purchasing insurance to bury yourself. You purchase insurance to protect your treasury if you become ill or diseased. You are doing everything possible to hasten the aging and death of your embodiment because you wholly expect it.
   The body is only a servant, an instrument of collective thought. It is a magnificent creation, the most refined instrument there is. But it was not created to have a mind of its own. It was created specifically to be a servant, and it will live only as long as you allow it to live. If you accept thoughts of old age --expecting the body to wither away and die-- or deny yourself love and happiness and joy, your body will gradually descend itself into the corruption of death.
   You know, master, in this very moment you can cease time completely and live in the foreverness of this Now, if you so choose, for is time not an illusion? Who has seen it? A great hypocrisy exists here because you refuse to believe in the unseen, yet you wholly worship and are enslaved to time.
   You have the power right within you, right where you are, to reverse the age of your embodiment back into youth and to live on and on and on. How? Simply through your attitude. If you do not want the body to age and die, change your attitude. Let your attitude say that the body will live forever, and so it will. Remove all things from your life that acknowledge the ending of it, and it will never end. Never have the word "old" in your vocabulary understanding. Have "forever" in your understanding. Cease the celebration of your birthdays, for that only gives credence to the aging process. If it pleases you to acknowledge your birth, do so, but reverse the count of your years and become younger. When you do not expect your death, you will never know it.
   Always live in the present. Never acknowledge any future other than this Now. Your Now will be eternity if you permit it to be so. Never contemplate how long you are going to live, for you will always live. Contemplate the foreverness of your body, and so it will become. That is simply how it is.
   Love yourself, master. Bless your body. Speak to your soul, which is the lord of your being, and command it to bring forth the enzymes of youth, and it will. Know that the body can live forever. And how does it live forever? By telling it to.
   Immortality is achieved only when one does away with the understanding of mortality. This travesty called death could be eliminated by the whole of humanity if they lived not in the future or the past but in the ongoingness of this Now, and if the attitude of living was greater than the prospects of dying. This shall be eliminated here in the years to come, for time will be no longer and these understandings will have become a living reality in everyone upon your plane. Then death will have become a senseless no-thing.

   Student: Is ascension what Jesus did when he resurrected his body and then reappeared?
   Ramtha: That is indeed how Yeshua ben Joseph did it. That is what I did. That is what Buddha did. That is what Osiris, Om Akad, Yukad, and Rackabia did. And there have been thousands more that you are not even aware of.

   Student: Is ascension something you forsee many of us accomplishing in this lifetime?
   Ramtha: Very few will ascend in this life, for few will truly realize and appreciate what is being taught here. Most will die because they acknowledge age and deterioration, and they care for the splendid machine that carries them only to the extent that it looks good. Thus they will age and the body will fall into corruption, and it will die. Then the Spirit and soul shall be freed of their union with the body. However, in order to come back to this plane of density in matter, they will need a vehicle through which to express; thus is the rebirthing of masters.
    Most here will die. But that does not mean that that is all for them. It simply means that the mask of the embodiment is removed and they will have to take up another. But if they do choose to return here, they will be returning to a consciousness that will facilitate ascension, for soon it will be an understood and accepted reality."

Refer to:  Holographic Universe by Michael Talbot, for inspiration. PDF Holographic Universe

Sunday, July 9, 2017

Saturday, July 8, 2017

Mental Health Through Will-Training, by Abraham A. Low

Now this man knows his stuff. He says in the "Preface": "More recently, the psychoanalytic doctrine has taken the lead and all but crowded out its erstwhile rivals. It established its hegemony in universities and philanthropic foundations and gained unquestioned prominence (right there, not good) in the province of psychotherapy. The doctrine appears to be in firm control (by the illuminati? no kidding) in the official psychiatric organizations, in the mental hygiene activities of the national government (obviously), in the veterans administration, presumably also in the hospitals of the armed forces. Official psychotherapy, in the United States today, is essentially psychoanalysis.
     The author rejects the psychoanalytic doctrine both as philosophy and therapeutic technique. In point of philosophy, he cannot share the view that human conduct is the result of unconscious drives, sexual or otherwise. To his way of thinking, adult life is not driven by instincts but guided by Will."

In other words, you don't let your false personality take over and drive you around. You, the master, takes over and guides the entire structure that you are responsible for, by Will. By thoughtful Will. It takes thought. One must look at something, and then find the best solution for that aspect, and then gently guide the structure into where it is best benefitted, all the while observing carefully the process, making changes along the way while guiding. Like Tsarion says, it's a curvy path.

So anyway. The point here is, there is a need for awareness, consciousness. One can't be asleep on the job, such as this man from "Ramtha, The White Book." Ramtha starts by saying, "To experience those planes, they have to see God in all things and be as God is," which means take up your cross, you've been given an inheritance, take your responsibility and start doing what is required of you to earn your inheritance. Otherwise, you'll just pilfer it away. And that isn't character building. So, the illuminati are willfully pilfering their inheritance away. But you don't have to follow in their footsteps. You can firm up your chin and face the day the way you were meant to. With eyes open, ears open, and a ready gait.

But this guy that Ramtha tells us about in this specific story, is asleep, so that you could say his conduct is the result of unconscious drives...he wants to see God, but he has a false view of God, so he fears God, so he wants to shut out the terror which it causes in him to have, but all because of a false view which is utterly useless. Would he to remove that one view, it would no longer be an obstacle to him, and then he could see clearly that God is in him and all he has to do is allow himself to breath, to be, and he would be able to begin putting that whole persepective of himself to good use, and everything would make sense to him...but in this way that he is behaving... Look at it yourself:

   "To experience those planes, they have to see God in all things and be as God is. Though they have humbly expressed love, they have yet to understand their oneness with God and all life.
   After a short time upon the plane of paradise, this master began to ponder whether there was something more, and he called for help. And there is always help. Behold, there appeared before him a most wondrous entity, silken in light and arrayed in garments that are brilliant to the eye. And he said to the entity, "O master, I am troubled. In this paradise I have everything, I have the fishes from the sea that I always dreamed about catching and never did. I have the home I always dreamed about having and never did. And I have flowers that do not even need a gardener. A most wondrous place. And look at my garments. I never had clothes like this before, but I have them now. Yet I am still troubled. Though I have many friends here, the woman I love is not with me. And that is not all that troubles me. Where is God? I see all these wondrous things. I have all these wondrous things. But where is God?"
   The wise entity says unto him, "Blessed be you who have reveled in all things that are and yet question whether there is perhaps something more, who questions where the Father is who has adorned you so well."
   "Well, that is what I am mostly troubled about. I would like to thank God for giving me all of these wonderful things. Although I've always been a little afraid of God, I would like to pay homage to him, if that's acceptable."
   The entity says, "Master, come with me. There is a place I wish to take you to."
   In but a blink of the eye, they are at a pond, yet they have traveled nowhere. The wise entity says, "Master, do sit yourself beside me and look into the water."
   The man looks into the water, and what does he see? He sees before him his last expression upon this plane: from the time he was a babe suckling upon his mother's breast, to the changing of his sweet bottom, to youth and skinned knees and lost marbles, to young manhood and seducing some unwilling participant, to manhood, marriage, and love forever, to children and opportunities, labors and friends and finances.
   He is amazed, for he is seeing himself as he has never seen himself before. He had been a good man in that life, who believed that God existed. He had been a powerful man, and yet he never enslaved anyone with his power. And he had loved his wife and children earnestly and didn't mind telling a few about that either. So he had made himself known in that life by teaching and mastering and loving and becoming humble and pure in Spirit.
   As his life is revealed in the pond and he contemplates what he sees, the man looks at the entity and he says, "I have done well."
   The entity says, "You have done well. You have done very well indeed, save for this: You never sought to know who your Father is, and you always separated him from yourself and all life.
   "Your wife, let us look at her. The greatest part of your love for your wife was giving her the things that she adored so much. And in that regard you have done quite well, save for this: You never loved yourself enough to allow her to love you in spite of all the things you gave her. You never really appreciated how grand you truly are, the giver of all those things.
   "So to ease your troubles, let me suggest this to you: Go back. It is there that you have expressed, and it is there that you have gained. And this time, you will have for yourself the mastery of loving yourself, expressing the love within your being, and seeing God in the beauty of all things.
   "If you decide to return, let me suggest that you choose carefully who you shall be, so the role that is laid out before you will give you the opportunity to become who you are and to understand what you have yet to understand.
   "I will leave you alone for a while. Ponder these things. You may take all the time you need. And if you decide to return, let me know and I will show you how best to proceed."
   The man is sitting there, a little weary, and he ponders. He has everything that he never had before; if he goes back, he loses it. Yet he is troubled, for he is desirous to find this God who has blessed him with paradise. So he calls for the entity and says unto him, "Entity, I am desirous to see God. But I'm not sure how I am supposed to do this."
   The entity says, "All you need do, master, is decide when you would like to present yourself known. Any time period, any place would be appropriate, because what you are going to set into motion by your desires will provide the experiences you are needing, regardless of when or where you choose. But if you have a particular desire to be a part of your family again, I would suggest to you -- and it is only a suggestion -- that you stay with them, for with them you have accomplished the most learning to this point."
   The man ponders this for a moment and then he says, "O entity, I have one further question to ask you: How will I know this God when I see him?" The entity replies to him, "When you know yourself, you will know him."
   This lightens the man's heart greatly. For the first time in his existence he can relate to a God that is perhaps the same as he. So he says to the entity, "I am desirous to go back and to see God. And I wish to be part of my family again."
   The entity says to him, "Look into the pool. What do you see?" The man looks into the pool and, behold, the young son that he left is now a young man who has escorted and wooed some lovely enchantress. They have become enamored with one another, and the copulation processes have already begun.
   The entity says, "There is a good chance, master, that there is a way provided for you to return through the offspring of your son."
   "Through my son? I am going to be my son's son? I, the father, am going to be my son's son and he my father?"
   "Of course. When you lived once before, he was your father and you were his son. So, you see, we are only repeating this once again."

So you see, it will be repeated over and over until they clean up their thinking and get that feeling of who they really are, and get on with the show.

   The man ponders this and he looks at this entity and says, "But I love my wife. How am I going to be my wife's grandson?"
   "From the time you are a small boy, you will adore your grandmother. By the time you are a man, she will have passed from the plane. Thus what has helped you to speak the love that is in your heart will have done its bidding; then it will be time to bring in new issues of seeing God in its beauty."
   The man ponders this and he says, "Entity, who has helped me so much, when all has been made ready, I wish to become the child of my son."
   The entity says to him, "The seed comes soon. When you see it, make yourself a part of your son's light."
   "How do I do this?" And he looks around and, behold, to his amazement, the entity is gone. Instead he is looking at his son, for he has become a part of his son's light. Though his son knows not that he is there, feelings of his father have come more to mind recently. "If only my father could see me now," thinks his son. But of course his father does.
   There comes a point when the child is within the womb. The man is going to be a part of the designing of this child through his thoughts and according to what he wishes his life to be. He may choose to take possession of the body upon conception or he may wait even till a year after birth to become the child.
   The man is most anxious, for he is finding things most familiar to him. So he chooses quickly to become the child. Thus he thrusts forth himself and, in the twinkling of an eye, he has forgotten who he is. And the first thing he knows is the coughing in his throat and someone wiping his eyes and wrapping him in things that are ever so small."

Alright then.

"Adult life is not driven by instincts but guided by Will. In emphasizing the priority of Will over Drives he is merely echoing the principles and teachings of the late Professor Emil Kraepelin, founder of modern psychiatry, and those of the late Professor Wilhelm Wundt, father of modern psychology. Quite proudly he (the author) claims also to echo the voice of common experience and common sense. (Hahahaha. For sure.) Whatever may be meant by drives, be they instinctual cravings -the favorite psychoanalytic term- or emotional trends, desires, wishes, yearnings and leaning, they all eventuate in impulses, acting or ready for action." (And that my dear, is in the Will to decision, as to where it will be guided).

And exercising the whole rest of the planes, to action!

This man here, is an example of someone expressing their God self. They aren't afraid to show what's deep inside, outside. They finetuned to within,    and the beauty just keeps shining out. It's not about judgement. It's about finding yourself.

I wouldn't say this is for everyone. It's just an example of cutting loose from everyone, getting away from the blob, the collective, and concentrating on your individuality, in all the right places, and in all the right ways. You know! When everything just clicks.

Some nice dance music to get you in the zone...

Do You Like Drugs?

Ido too. U

The fuckin speed in me. I could be a plant. I could be a singular animal just waltzing around. I could be you....I could be me. I could be anything OU U waNt me,  to be. vut, I cannot be it for long. For, I have duties and responsibilites. But, I do appreciate the time away, whith you, when I get it. When you 'get it', let me know. Becaaaaaause, I am lifting the lever, higher. Narnia.

And for hire, as well.




Hahahahaa, Ticonfuseananimal....run after it~!

Monty Python, step aside. What we do in the shadows, is our business.

If you fed off human blood, and you couldn't take it forcefully, then you'd do like the vampires do in their transactions. Get them to agree. But you can't do that by wearing jeans and a t-shirt. You have to distract their attention from the cold skin of your body and the smell of rotting blood from your belly, wafting around you... so you dress in pretty white linen, cotton or silk shirts with frills that excite the imagination, and put a nice lace tablecloth on your kitchen table to entice and seduce them to stick around and fill themselves up with the ambiance and beauty that you offer. They usually do. Stick around, hahaha. Forever!

And far higher...

Thursday, June 29, 2017

Those Frightening Tarot Cards.

I've always admired others who put effort into things that I have hesitancy about, because what they find, helps me to understand it better.... such as the Tarot. I've been frightened of cards for a long time. It doesn't just happen that one is frightened about something for no reason. I have had strange experiences which always made me to be very hesitant about delving into them.

For example, that time I was in Toronto and was looking at everyone that I knew, futures, through a regular pack of playing cards. It was Saturday and I had bought a book that shows you what each card means and how to tell the future through them. I did this all day in an effort to learn the cards by heart, and the expressions they give when put together in different ways. That is when that strange incident happened, where there was a banging under the house, but there is no subway under my place...and I had never heard those sounds before. Then the two cat fight, where I was rooting for one inside myself, egging it on. But suddenly to hear those two screaming cats sounds turn into metal screeching against metal, and the entire environment fill with an electrical very spooky environment, just at the stroke of ten, when it became dark in the middle of summer, on that still, warm August night. The guy I was living with, did not call that night, nor show up at home, the whole time. He never acted like that, never. It was one of the most intensely frightening things to hear, all night long, all different kind of animals, African animals, screaming all night long, and a cars doors opening and shutting all night, with its engine revving up or purring to the tune of my emotions. I was only 21.

Then a few years later, when I was living with some people in a house, I had my own room...this one young lady did the Tarot, and she once did my reading on her bed as I watched. This seemed to be followed by a poster on my wall crackling like it would fall off the wall, and everytime I went to check, it was firmly in place. Then it would do it again, but this time, just a little more vehement...like it hated me and wanted to frighten me. Then, following that, some very negative situations came into my life as experiences. These are two experiences I've had. But when I once visited a man who did the cards, I could hear strange sounds in his house. When I asked him about it, he says there's a spirit that lives with him, and I think I asked him if it was because of the cards? But that's what I thought, and that's what it felt like. Too many people who do the cards have spooky spirits around them. It's just something I don't want to deal with, as, I have dealt with those things most of my life anyway.

Maybe you do have to be a magician to play with cards?

Thursday, June 22, 2017

Mary Magdalene Gospel

Here at the Gnostic Society Library in "The Gospel According to Mary Magdalene," we have one interpretation.

Chapter 4
(Pages 1 to 6 of the manuscript, containing chapters 1 - 3, are lost.  The extant text starts on page 7...)
. . . Will matter then be destroyed or not?
22) The Savior said, All nature, all formations, all creatures exist in and with one another, and they will be resolved again into their own roots.
23) For the nature of matter is resolved into the roots of its own nature alone.
24) He who has ears to hear, let him hear.
25) Peter said to him, Since you have explained everything to us, tell us this also: What is the sin of the world?
26) The Savior said There is no sin, but it is you who make sin when you do the things that are like the nature of adultery, which is called sin.
27) That is why the Good came into your midst, to the essence of every nature in order to restore it to its root.
28) Then He continued and said, That is why you become sick and die, for you are deprived of the one who can heal you.
29) He who has a mind to understand, let him understand.
30) Matter gave birth to a passion that has no equal, which proceeded from something contrary to nature. Then there arises a disturbance in its whole body.
31) That is why I said to you, Be of good courage, and if you are discouraged be encouraged in the presence of the different forms of nature.
32) He who has ears to hear, let him hear.
33) When the Blessed One had said this, He greeted them all,saying, Peace be with you. Receive my peace unto yourselves.
34) Beware that no one lead you astray saying Lo here or lo there! For the Son of Man is within you.
35) Follow after Him!
36) Those who seek Him will find Him.
37) Go then and preach the gospel of the Kingdom.
38) Do not lay down any rules beyond what I appointed you, and do not give a law like the lawgiver lest you be constrained by it.

39) When He said this He departed.


Chapter 8:
. . . it.
10) And desire said, I did not see you descending, but now I see you ascending. Why do you lie since you belong to me?
11) The soul answered and said, I saw you. You did not see me nor recognize me. I served you as a garment and you did not know me.
12) When it said this, it (the soul) went away rejoicing greatly.
13) Again it came to the third power, which is called ignorance.
14) The power questioned the soul, saying, Where are you going? In wickedness are you bound. But you are bound; do not judge!
15) And the soul said, Why do you judge me, although I have not judged?
16) I was bound, though I have not bound.
17) I was not recognized. But I have recognized that the All is being dissolved, both the earthly things and the heavenly.
18) When the soul had overcome the third power, it went upwards and saw the fourth power, which took seven forms.
19) The first form is darkness, the second desire, the third ignorance, the fourth is the excitement of death, the fifth is the kingdom of the flesh, the sixth is the foolish wisdom of flesh, the seventh is the wrathful wisdom. These are the seven powers of wrath.
20) They asked the soul, Whence do you come slayer of men, or where are you going, conqueror of space?
21) The soul answered and said, What binds me has been slain, and what turns me about has been overcome,
22) and my desire has been ended, and ignorance has died.
23) In a aeon I was released from a world, and in a Type from a type, and from the fetter of oblivion which is transient.

24) From this time on will I attain to the rest of the time, of the season, of the aeon, in silence.

But in this place, "Gospel of Mary of Magdala," we have a slightly different interpretation, which helps one to understand deeper the true meanings.

Note: Square brackets in the translation indicate that a gap exists in the manuscript where writing once existed; the text within the brackets has been restored by scholars.
Pages 1-6 are missing.
     "… Will m[a]tter then be utterly [destr]oyed or not?"
     The Savior replied, "Every nature, every modeled form, every creature, exists in and with each other. They will dissolve again into their own proper root. For the nature of matter is dissolved into what belongs to its nature. Anyone with two ears able to hear should listen!"
Then Peter said to him, "You have been explaining every topic to us; tell us one other thing. What is the sin of the world?"
     The Savior replied, "There is no such thing as sin; rather you yourselves are what produces sin when you act in accordance with the nature of adultery, which is called 'sin.' For this reason, the Good came among you, pursuing (the good) which belongs to every nature. It will set it within its root."
     Then he continued. He said, "This is why you get si[c]k and die: because [you love] what de[c]ei[ve]s [you]. [Anyone who] thinks should consider (these matters)!
     "[Ma]tter gav[e bi]rth to a passion which has no Image because it derives from what is contrary to nature. A disturbing confusion then occurred in the whole body. That is why I told you, 'Become content at heart, while also remaining discontent and disobedient; indeed become contented and agreeable (only) in the presence of that other Image of nature.' Anyone with two ears capable of hearing should listen!"
     When the Blessed One had said these things, he greeted them all. "Peace be with you!" he said. "Acquire my peace within yourselves!
     "Be on your guard so that no one deceives you by saying, 'Look over here!' or 'Look over there!' For the child of true Humanity exists within you. Follow it! Those who search for it will find it. 
     "Go then, preac[h] the good news about the Realm. [Do] not lay down any rule beyond what I determined for you, nor promulgate law like the lawgiver, or else you might be dominated by it."
After he had said these things, he departed from them.
     But they were distressed and wept greatly. "How are we going to go out to the rest of the world to announce the good news about the Realm of the child of true Humanity?" they said. "If they did not spare him, how will they spare us?"
     Then Mary stood up. She greeted them all, addressing her brothers and sisters, "Do not weep and be distressed nor let your hearts be irresolute. For his grace will be with you all and will shelter you. Rather we should praise his greatness, for he has prepared us and made us true Human beings."
      When Mary had said these things, she turned their heart [to]ward the Good, and they began to deba[t]e about the wor[d]s of [the Savior].
     Peter said to Mary, "Sister, we know that the Savior loved you more than all other women. Tell us the words of the Savior that you remember, the things which you know that we don't because we haven't heard them."
     Mary responded, "I will teach you about what is hidden from you." And she began to speak these words to them.
     She said, "I saw the Lord in a vision and I said to him, 'Lord, I saw you today in a vision.'
He answered me, 'How wonderful you are for not wavering at seeing me! For where the mind is, there is the treasure.'
     I said to him, 'So now, Lord, does a person who sees a vision see it <with> the soul <or> with the spirit?'
     The Savior answered, 'A person does not see with the soul or with the spirit. 'Rather the mind, which exists between these two, sees the vision an[d] that is w[hat … ]'
(Pages 11-14 are missing.)
     " '… it.'
     "And Desire said, 'I did not see you go down, yet now I see you go up. So why do you lie since you belong to me?'
     "The soul answered, 'I saw you. You did not see me nor did you know me. You (mis)took the garment (I wore) for my (true) self. And you did not recognize me.'
     "After it had said these things, it left rejoicing greatly.
     "Again, it came to the third Power, which is called 'Ignorance.' [It] examined the soul closely, saying, 'Where are you going? You are bound by wickedness. Indeed you are bound! Do not judge!'
     "And the soul said, 'Why do you judge me, since I have not passed judgement? I have been bound, but I have not bound (anything). They did not recognize me, but I have recognized that the universe is to be dissolved, both the things of earth and those of heaven.'
     "When the soul had brought the third Power to naught, it went upward and saw the fourth Power. It had seven forms. The first form is darkness; the second is desire; the third is ignorance; the fourth is zeal for death; the fifth is the realm of the flesh; the sixth is the foolish wisdom of the flesh; the seventh is the wisdom of the wrathful person. These are the seven Powers of Wrath.
     "They interrogated the soul, 'Where are you coming from, human-killer, and where are you going, space-conqueror?'
     "The soul replied, saying, 'What binds me has been slain, and what surrounds me has been destroyed, and my desire has been brought to an end, and ignorance has died. In a [wor]ld, I was set loose from a world [an]d in a type, from a type which is above, and (from) the chain of forgetfulness which exists in time. From this hour on, for the time of the due season of the aeon, I will receive rest i[n] silence.' " 
     After Mary had said these things, she was silent, since it was up to this point that the Savior had spoken to her.
     Andrew responded, addressing the brothers and sisters, "Say what you will about the things she has said, but I do not believe that the S[a]vior said these things, f[or] indeed these teachings are strange ideas."
     Peter responded, bringing up similar concerns. He questioned them about the Savior: "Did he, then, speak with a woman in private without our knowing about it? Are we to turn around and listen to her? Did he choose her over us?"
     Then [M]ary wept and said to Peter, "My brother Peter, what are you imagining? Do you think that I have thought up these things by myself in my heart or that I am telling lies about the Savior?"
Levi answered, speaking to Peter, "Peter, you have always been a wrathful person. Now I see you contending against the woman like the Adversaries. For if the Savior made her worthy, who are you then for your part to reject her? Assuredly the Savior's knowledge of her is completely reliable. That is why he loved her more than us.
     "Rather we should be ashamed. We should clothe ourselves with the perfect Human, acquire it for ourselves as he commanded us, and announce the good news, not laying down any other rule or law that differs from what the Savior said."
     After [he had said these] things, they started going out [to] teach and to preach.

[The Gos]pel according to Mary

Sunday, May 28, 2017

The Magic of Music.

The Best of Paganini.

JD writes, “Current research shows a short-term, fifteen minute gain of IQ, an average of 9 points after listening to Mozart. What causes this?”

This Awareness indicates this has to do with the effect of the music on the brain in helping the brain into a kind of harmonious pattern seeking, or pattern familiarization mechanism. The brain becomes familiar with certain patterns. It exercises by way of listening to patterns in music, and the music is lively, which helps speed up the brain, and it is harmonious, which helps to relax the brain.
It is a kind of exercise for the brain so that gradually the brain becomes more orderly in its thinking processes. There are likely to be other forms of music, classical music especially, that will also have similar effects on the brain. However, there are also certain types of music that numb the brain, slow it down, and are likely to cause a drop in the IQ. These of course would be the more monotonous type of repetition and dull beating and rap-type music.

“Is listening to classics while pregnant or in infancy similarly beneficial?”

This is in the affirmative. Experiments have been done with plants whereby certain types of music were played and the plants responded by growing and budding and flowering, while other types of music played and the plants began to wilt, weaken and eventually die. Certain heavy metal music, music without harmony and without pattern, without any kind of melodious quality tends to weaken plants. Music that has a high harmonious value and quality, melodious in its expression, tends to give plants more energy. If you equate the effect music has on plants as likened to the effects on the human brain you will find a similarity in its effect on the plants and on the human brain, the intelligence of the human brain. 

This Awareness indicates also that dissonant music, music that is disharmonious and clashing, tends to tear down the aura and make it fuzzy, weak, and disturbed, and music that is harmonic and rhythmic in a melodious and harmonious manner will tend to strengthen and build upon the aura. Thus, if you have an entity that is ill, the entity’s aura may be torn down by very dissonant disruptive music and then rebuilt by very harmonious music and it will have an effect on helping to heal the entity’s sickness. For example, “The Rites of Spring” by Stravinsky, followed by the music of Mahler or Tchaikovsky, or Rachmaninoff can be of great value in helping to tear down the aura and then rebuild the aura.

We have a related question from MM, New York City. “On cable TV you see all kinds of weird irrational things, obviously alien manipulated. There is a lot of material that defies the brain and senses, music particularly. Yesterday I saw a music video where the image of a Draco and a Zeta were flashed for one second while the music played. It was very weird. There are bands like ‘Electronic I’, ‘Army of Lovers’, and ‘Pet Shop Boys’ that are very high tech and alien related. My question is that, in most occult western esoteric traditions pop music is said to destroy the chakras and soul, and that only classical music should be heard. I personally only listen to classical music. How true is this, and especially in regard to these New Age bands with alien overtones, specifically “Go West” by Pet Shop Boys? I would love to know the hidden intention or message of that music video, whether Pleiadian or Draco.”

This Awareness indicates that generally speaking, the harmonious music, wherein chords are harmonious, is uplifting and harmonious to the soul. Generally speaking, music that is dissonant and clashing tends to affect the nerves, and can create a problem for the energies of an entity’s psyche or soul. Emotional levels, for example, may be disturbed by clashing disharmonious music.
This Awareness indicates however, that when an entity evolves far enough in a soul sense or spiritual sense, the entity may find that certain dissonant sounds, a minor chord instead of a major chord, can be extremely beautiful, and also entities may find that the augmented fifth, or some change in the chord to create a particular area of dissonance within a harmonious chord, can also add a new sense of harmony that is quite beautiful when placed in relationship to others chords, so that music, such as that written by the Rimsky-Korsakov, who wrote ‘Bolero’ and ‘Scheherazade’ –this writer of Russian music and his student Khachaturian, used tones that were not classic harmony but had certain elements of dissonance in such a way as to create a different kind of beauty.

These harmonies were not the regular major thirds or even minor chords, but were of a different nature to bring about a new kind of harmony that had notes which carried a certain clash along with the harmony. This Awareness indicates that Shostakovich for example, carried this even further. In modern times the C major seventh chord is used quite frequently, and its sad dissonant sound is greatly enjoyed. However, two hundred years ago it was considered too dissonant to be heard in a composition. It wasn’t until the composer Erik Satie started using it in his compositions that it became recognized and slowly became popular as a legitimate musical statement. Later writers disregarded the scale of seven notes with its sharps and flats by creating 12 notes in the scale, using all the sharps and all the flats along with the regular notes, and indiscriminately playing the
various notes without regard to the “Do Re Me Fa So La Ti Do” scale. This Awareness indicates that this allowed them to get around the entire scale without being held by restrictive rules and harmonies, whereby music then became more wild, even though still classical in nature; a pattern being broken, so that they used the full range of 12 notes instead of 7 notes of the scale. This Awareness indicates that even this did not harm the soul or harm the emotions or disrupt the patterns of harmony within the psyche so much that the psyche lost any sense of structure, but when music entered into modern rock and roll and heavy metal and lost any form or pattern other than rhythmic beat and repetition of notes, the guttural voice and disharmonious sounds and repetitive beats of rhythm began to create a new kind of disturbance to the order of the soul, or order of the human psyche.

The deep beating affecting the gonads, the guttural sounds affecting certain basic animalistic instincts within the psyche, being equated or related to animal growling and the deeper chakras and the harsh screaming of the vocals along with music that followed no particular melody or pattern; all of this began to tear away at order, the harmonious order of the soul.
You must understand that the chakras in the human body equate to the “Do Re Me Fa So La Ti Do” of the scale, and when the music does not follow these harmonic notes of the human chakra, it begins to disturb, disrupt, and create confusion in the chakras, and therefore, the psyche becomes chaotic and loses its order, and the base gonad levels from the beating of the drums and low bass tones become dominant in the chakras of the human. Thus, consciousness descends to the gonad level and to the lower chakra levels.

This Awareness indicates however, if the composer and musicians use rhythm, even repetitive beats, but also play harmonious melodies or provide tones that invoke feelings of wonder or awe or higher intelligence, this kind of music can inspire and help to heal the human psyche. There is much good to be found in popular music, especially if the melodies and lyrics are used in a manner that uplifts. This Awareness indicates that even music and lyrics that are dark and seem to wallow in the lower levels and invoke depths of sadness can help entities to rise above their own imagined darkness. Some of the songs written by Leonard Cohen and Bob Dylan have the ability to tap into levels of human tragedy and somehow manage to uplift and raise this sense of tragedy and despair, which can help entities to climb out of the repetitive negative emotional patterns that they are trapped in.

This Awareness indicates that music is akin to magic. Even the words “Music” and “Magic” are similar in their construction. This Awareness asks you to remember that there is good magic, which seeks to uplift and help, and there is bad magic, which seeks to tear down, destroy and create chaos. Music is a tool that can be used for good or for ill, and as always, the choice is yours.

Excerpted from "Cosmic Awareness Newsletter May 2017."